A ghost of what could have been
Haunting my mind with what ifs
You became my nightmare
Though you started as a daydream
All golden hair and amber eyes
Bright smile and that warm laugh
Soft kisses and whispers of forever
Your hoodie keeping me warm
Football matches dressed in red and gold
And you having to explain the rules to me
I don’t know when things went wrong
I don’t know where things went wrong
Coffee shop banters turned arguments
Missed calls, canceled plans, unanswered texts
Threadbare emotions at 2 am
Screaming that everything was for nothing
Unkept promises and shattered hope
Becoming a wasteland of broken dreams
Even after all the times you never showed
I still waited under the streetlights for you
Like the tide pulling away
You drew away into your mind
Becoming as moody and unpredictable as the sea
But I didn’t know I had a fear of the ocean
Never was I worried about being dragged under the current
Until you taught me to be afraid
Did you ever think I would want this
Not knowing what version I’m going to get
Your hands carried me home and
Your hands wiped my tears away and
Your hands held my hands and
It was your hands that pushed me away
Skye's Ambitions 